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So I left an abusive adoptive family around May. I had been living with a single wealthy woman who provided food and clothes but she was emotionally, psychologically and verbally abusive. She’d yell at me until I started hyperventilating or cutting myself, knowing damn well I have a 12+ year history of being abused and have bipolar disorder (she’s a doctor, graduated from Duke, big medical doctor in her field). When I complained she’d just say I was defiant and ask how I’d handle a boss if I couldn’t handle her, or sneer that at least she had never hit me.
She got engaged to this guy in Feb. He’d lie to CPS about staying overnight (he wasn’t supposed to be there overnight but would be there for weeks) and refuses to get fingerprinted. When he moved in, she kicked me off the cell phone bill, stopped buying anything for me (including food) and he was going to bring his rifles into the house. This scares me because I have a history of suicide attempts and I felt unsafe with him, and her, because I dealt with the abuse so I could be financially ok. Now I had neither.
I left in May and got emergency campus housing. Unfortunately, my scholarships didn’t cover it, and I was denied loans because it was summer term. I have been paying everything with a cc since March, and even though I work, I have traded food for money, borrowed from friends and sold clothes and books, it isn’t enough. The school put me with an anti-violence resource center but they can’t pay my cc bill off, or provide honestly anything besides therapy.
Literally any amount will help, I’m just so damn overwhelmed and crying and I’ve exhausted EVERY option (I’m at 100% of COA so all student loans will end up denied)